6.55am / 10:01:00 AM

that monday to friday alarm call doesn't seem to cease on saturdays even though i didnt set my alarm. i'm feeling sleepy with intermittent sleep from 7am onwards. finally decided to just wake up have my nutella bread and read the satuday papers groggily.

work has been slow. it was slower in week one. i dont really have a focus yet. so when people ask me what do i do in that unit i just say i float around. the people there are nice. not many young peeps around in my department. and yes i am so desk bound i fear for my ass and my tummy. a must do after work activity is to exercise. by the time i get home i bathe knock out on the bed and its a brand new day again just like that. talk about monotony.

i have a love hate relationship with lunch time. we dont have a canteen within the building. or rather we do have one, but it is not operating. no tenants. just closed shutters at psuedo stalls. so we have to eat out. see who is driving out and hopefully get a lift out together. eating out has its perks. you get to travel out of the office. have a variety of choices as i try various centres and see if there are any hidden gems. but sometimes i end up sitting in a car with a bunch of people i dont know. a little awkward at times. but overall ill jsut sit there and listen to theri conversations. i like listening and reflecting on theri various life experience. like yesterday i was the youngest eating out with 4 other married males as they talk about work, how their wives either take the public transport themselves to work or just take the car if their husbands refuse to wake up. so that's why one colleague has 2 cars. how they proceeded to buy toto cos of the 3 million prize money. quick pick they say. they are nice people nevertheless. and the people in my unit. getting to know a new person, having a short conversation, or just listening, can just ignite a few reflections.

week 2 at work. i realised how possible it can be to jsut lose yourself. to be unmotivated. jaded. but so far so fine. gaining some perspective as i work in a different organisation. micro. i do miss the adrenaline rush to meet daily news bulletins. going out to cover stories. shucks. just got to come back to now.

its saturday already. i was so mentally exhausted yesterday i just didnt feel like volunteering for anything. jsut give me anything to do and ill gladly do it quick for them. it was 540pm when i finally left the office. after a sun moulin bread perk me up and a walk around the supermarket, i reached home around 7pm. the earliest i've been home so far. it felt good. to just be in a place where i dont have to look busy or try to be busy or think about being proactive or press f9 to refresh my email inbox every 5 minutes. i jsut sat on my bed and felt at peace. on thursday i nearly fell asleep at yoga class. that tired despite not doing much. a tv break and baking oatmeal raisin cookies, more tv, a shower and sleep

hopefully, it can only get better.

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