a new phase / 12:21:00 PM

soon i'll be one of those squeezing for space in an mrt. yes i've got a job. good for me. my brain will soon be awakened from hibernation. but gone is the free time which i have a love hate relationship with. so far i have baked banana muffins, a failed attempt at chocolate fondant, ginger cookies and double chocolate chip cookies. soon i am going to use that bread machine which has been collecting dust in the cupboard. baking is a good way to kill time for me. other than exercising and catching up on my american drama.

the new job is something very different from what i studied. but i like sports. and its a first for singapore to host the event so i'm lookign forward to exposure, experience and to being part of the team to organise the event. i shouldnt have expectations about this job. i still have my fears. guess i jsut have to go in with an open heart and take in as much as i can. i was pretty bummed out when things didnt go very well for me in looking for a job. my timing was bad. sometimes it made me feel like maybe i'm not that good after all. or so much for that experience i've accumulated. i was confident and i knew i can do it. or maybe even better. but sometimes you jsut dont have all the luck. i went to a career fair and yes, there are many other opportunities outside the media. maybe it wont be as interesting as what i did back then. i guess i just had to move on. i had to stop living in the past and wishing that i was given opportunities again to do what i knew i like and in an industry where i could meet people, not wory about office wear, and pretty much a fulfilling job. but as i said, i think i jsut had to move on. it is not easy. even right now when i am glad that i am given the opportunity with this agency,sometimes i reminisce those days as a bj and i just wish i can still have it again.

just move on and keep an open mind.

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