thoughts / 11:37:00 AM

i have this thought that as we grow older we protect ourselves. we dont let others know us easily. we decide what's right to be said, what's not. what's best to be said and so on. maybe because right now we've come to a stage where we are meeting so many people. people meeting becomes a fletting moment. where it becomes just a hi and a bye. that you dont feel like giving them the opportunity of letting them know the real you. i think the real me has gone into hiding. not many people out there that i meet know who is the real me. is it because of the pace of life that we have, the many things that we have to do, or the wall that i put up around me. or i dont trust people easily. or i dont want misunderstandings. maybe its a combination of all. it feels like it has been a long time since i met a new friend who knows the real me. i dont know whether its a consequence of society or a consequence of one's character. but it is a thought. old friends dont become better friends cos they probably found new friends. i guess people whom you dont meet up oftenly and somehow you still feel that form of bonding, are what i call true friends who probably know the real me.

but how real can we be? we all hold our little sides of us that we dont show. it feels like we are living in a shell of our own.

just some thoughts.

it's a lousy weekend.