friday / 9:08:00 PM

friday!

parking. lousy. i think i will change my test date. 8 lessons so far. after 3 months. and according to him, i'm still at basic standard.

3 more weeks. then we'll step down officially. i will miss the times we had as a Fantastic 4. not calling ourselves Top 4 in order to not draw the line. 4 of us had meetings everywhere we go. it's funny how we can even talk about stuff next to a cashcard machine for 45minutes. though me and dan can finally be a 'normal couple', as what i term, maybe it'll be hard to adapt as we'll probably have less hall stuff to discuss about (yay). i used to hate those times when topics on hall matters was brought up. especially when i didnt have the mood for it. it was hard on us and on him especially as the big P. hall life will soon take on a different turn for us. as we finally can take the back seat. i make it sound that being in the main was a terrible thing. well it was at times. very time consuming. but looking back at it right now, i had my regrets, and as much as i used to lament at the time lost, maybe this experience did teach me that elusive something. we jsut have to have lessons from everything that we went through.

though at times, i feel invisible,ignored, amongst certain groups of people in hall. maybe cos to them i didnt do what they want, or they just hate me and are all ready to shoot at the yearly disgusting meeting.but what the heck. i can tell myself to not give a damn about those people. but somehow it's hard to not ignore them cos you see them everyday.

and stepping down means less hi and byes! i can be the dao me again and only say hi to people who i really care about and whom i know are sincere friendships to be formed.

maybe just drop an occasional smile. we even had synonyms for hi or bye. because they are used too often.

it's funny how i know so many people. and it's sad how some are not real at all.

ah. time for a run.