/ 8:54:00 PM

if things had to end this way i guess it was just meant to be. i'm confused. disappointed yet relieved. i've been playing this game for too long. it's difficult to stop, though thoughts of discontinuing did cross my mind. i guess when u've yet to reach your expectations, you are just tired of trying though the other half of you still wants to push on.

sprained my ankle at the last training. wont be playing the last ih game. nice way to wrap things up. the sinseh i saw wasnt exactly a sinseh. it seemed more like a sleazy massage parlour ahpeks go to. it was a china lady who helped me. bo bian. i needed to see a sinseh. the one i wanted to go to had a waiting list till 4. 2 hours of waiting doesnt appeal to me. 25 bucks for that massage with hokkien or smth karoke from her tv set. O.O.

so glad tueesday is a holiday. i feel like i need a break. too much happened in the past week. emotionally i guess. i guess this is what happens when u play a sport for more than a decade, yet you cant excel up to your own n maybe other's expectations, you wish to let go but you cant.

on the bright side, i have more time on my hands.

my engine is still off for school.

craving for belgian chocolate ice blended. bah.