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it's another post! my blog posts are novelties. you dont get to see them often. and you get an element of surprise when you see any new posts. indexed as high rarity. haha.

just done with the horrible exams. this semester is much mroe interesting and much more difficult. with the bloody journalism readings and social psychology theories which overloaded my brain. i have inadequate ram despite the space. it takes time to process the overwhelming information. nevertheless, i'm glad its over. but i learnt a lot this semester, though the exam results may not speak much of what i have actually learnt. it's quite sad that what we learnt from our revision may not be required for our answers and we dont get to show off what we understand. i feel so cheated when that happens.

when i watch tv these days, i'm more sensitive to the content. i snigger at public broadcasting messages, i see how First Mums is supported by MDA, probably so that more people will want to have babies. i see how hegemony is practiced and audiences' are just subjected to the magic bullet. i observe how they film and see if it'll probably be useful for any year 2 projects. so enthusiastic. bah. maybe that's what you get when you are a communication studies student, you become mroe sensitive to the media content. it's pretty interesting.

i feel so aimless now that the exams are over. and i'm still in hall as i type this. and naother race begins just as the exams finish. obligations which will be fulfilled. i'll finish this journey till the day i become no one.

i want to do so much stuff. but i dont know if i'll go about doing them, knowing how passive i am. sheesh.

i need a job. it's a holiday with a proper break away from this bubble. finally. i miss home.

my dear bishan mates, meet up soon man!

i guess there are lots of opportunity costs when you commit yourself to something. be it academics, hall, relationships. is it selfish to comply with reluctance? or is the world shaped in a way where everyone has to be unhappy and make do with obligations?

i hate obligations. it's just my innocent and simple view that we should do things we are happy and willing to do. but this doesnt fulfill in this out-to-kill competitive world. that's a sad thought.