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right i'm all stressed up again. and it's not because of the academic side. the readings are piling but can be handled. after all cs is getting interesting. maybe other than singapore society or introduction to communication studies. its a sleep inducing module. readings machiam slight geographical or economics. got all my texts. thick books. 2nd hand.

and ya back to the stress level now. its in the slight reddish/pink level with powerhouse red as the ultimate. open tournament is starting and i still suck at vball.totally lost my ball sense. and somehow i have become a pepsi can jumper only when spiking/blocking. if i jump normally i'm fine. wonderin if i should continue with inter-varsity level. trainings and all.i need fresh air! i've been smelling the same air for 8years. i'm chokingg on excessive carbon dioxide. ok that's exaggerative. jcrc there's competition involved. not that i was taking it for granted but it suddenly dawned on me that it can be tough competition. and i'm the type who gives myself a lot of stress so....ya. pageant is coming. dance practices. clothes fitting. another form of stress. its all time induced. the lack of time. the prospect of having to prioritse and to ensure that nothing clashes. it's quite tiring. and the late nights i've been having. guess this is really hall life. i'm enjoying it to a certain extent. and the other side of the argument is that i may drop something for something fresh, new and exciting. there's so many to choose from.

i really wonder.

i never had such a dilemma before. haha.i'm afraid of what others may perceive if i make my decision. i dont want people to hate me.

oh well. thought for the night. lecture in 6.5hours time. till then.