/ 12:15:00 PM

worked for 12 hours yesterday.it was chaotic in the afternoon.out of the 5 floor staff 4 were blur ones for they were quite new.i felt as if i was clearing up the mess and that i was the only one working.it wasnt helpful when the people inside starting mocking us and hurrying us.to and fro up and down.what i didnt need at that point of time was sacarsm.i hate sacarsm.well i dont practice what i preach but being a really sensitive person,i can sense sacarsm pretty easily.but anyway it was a terrible day at work yesterday.i didnt feel good.emotionally i guess.sigh if only i had found a substitute for my night shift then i could have gone out with the girls and enjoyed myself.

taking a break for 1.5 weeks.need to start packing.and maybe job hunt.i dont know.nothing's definite now.

i think there's this inferiority complex in me.this lack of self confidence and my self concious.just cant help it.but i do wish it'll change for the better over time.sometimes i just feel as if the whole world is watching my every move.yet tiny and obscure.