/ 5:49:00 PM

not working till friday night.so i guess i really have much time on my hands.the thing is most,or maybe,all my close friends are working every weekday.so i'm spending my time all by myself.sounds rather pathetic.but then again,some alone time is where you get to be comfortable with yourself and no one else.no one to accomodate to.so maybe that's an advantage.

spent half of my afternoon at compass.finished a book.borrowed 4 books,including a self help book by Andrew Mattews How to be Happy.hopefully it'll work.and i spent 50bucks within like 3 hours?bought hazelnut ice blended,Tension(!!!)'s cd,necessities,stuff,all purchases made within compass point.think i'm becoming a spendthrift.found reasons and motivation to work.basically to earn money for my future university needs.hopefully i'll make it to university.i'll become a recluse if i dont get in.maybe hide myself at home and cry.maybe things happen for a reason.maybe i'll go be an entrepreneur if i fail to get into uni.hopefully i'll get to earn big bucks and go be a tai-tai.or maybe marry a rich husband and be an even more slack tai-tai.oh well.to make up for my spending ways this week,especially when i'll only earn 60bucks this week,i'll work everyday from next week onwards.slog.

i feel like there's this need for me to be productive.like go sign up for some course and get a certificate or something.maybe psychology,guitar lessons,dance lessons hip hop blah blah,effective speaking skills or whatever.maybe my mum will be willing to pay.as long as it's deemed productive and useful by her.oh well.i'll look out for interesting courses.dont really feel like learning driving now.haven't taken my basic theory.but who cares.i've got public transport and the rather costly public transport fares to accomodate to my needs.maybe that'll be one less person who will be contributing to carbon monoxide which will ultimately reduce the acid rain or something.save more trees or carbon sinks.i'm getting geographical.

this sounds crazy.but i think i miss studying.feel like going through my econs notes.with all that budget talk and population crisis going on in the media,i feel the need to recap my econs and geo stuff man.mad right.think im just getting bored.

maybe i can start packing and throw away redundant stuff.moving back in a month.oh yeah.my room's gonna be pinK.not bright act cute pink.hopefully it'll be nice.

hmmm.Tension's cd is niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.