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finally.lit is over.its off my head.its a big burden off my head.and my shoulders.juz hate lit.detest lit.makes me so sian when i study it.maybe expcet for hard times and jude.shakespeare sucks to the core.wad shakespearean language also dun understand.art thou love lit?lolx.


i'm on this pathetic sian mode now.yawn.yeah though i'm finished (intended pun) with lit,still got human geo to handle.case studies.drown myself in them for the whole wkend.i'm working against time.or rather time is working against me.oh well.betta makes use of the 8wks before the big thing to actually mug and score wonderful results.haha.make myself and my parents happy.


there are many species of dogs,cats,monkeys.there are many types of human,in terms of human character.i guess i;ve met a lot of different kind of ppl.well this morning i met an obnoxious one with tt super proud face,head stuck in the air and eyes looking down on u.wonder whats her problem.but den again,dun even noe her so i cant juz judge based on tt incident.do you judge ppl by the first meeting?do you continue to let ur impression take the better of ur judgement?do you prefer to listen what others haf to say abt them than to let ur own judgement take its call?sometimes i wonder,to follow the mainstream opinion rather than to make ur own judgement of ppl.something like being a conformist rather than a non conformist.i guess that common impression is a mere temporary one.after all given time i guess impressions do change.dunno why i'm bloggin abt this.or if i'm bloggin logically.juz feel so saturated now.i cant help worrying.cant help beign frantic.though sen tells me to calm down.juz cant help it.its obvious that i can do much more when i'm composed.but den again,juz cant help being freaked out.feel as though there's so much to worry abt.so much to handle.lucky for me i haf my frends.but den,maybe they dunno everything abt me.not that i'm a mystery,but i'm juz a bottler.


was planning wad to do after the prelims which ends on tuesday for me.planned to slack and do light work like sat for that wk.i was thinking,another 8 wks of continuous muggin,its a scary though.my freak syndrome is manifesting again.somehow i juz wish,life would be much simpler without these worries to worry abt.well maybe bcos i'm lettin myself worry abt them.obsessive worrier.too much aint good for health.argh i think i'm contradictory.Woman at best a contradiction still.duno what to do la.know i'm excessively worryin yet i'm not doin much to curb it.eek.in the end stress msyelf up over nothing.liew.hate this.


sigh this empty feeling is growing in me again.something like hwo i felt when we were out of the nationals.received aj link today.juz felt.......weird.and empty.duno if ppl will start thinking i;m brooding too long over this stupid issue or incident which was like in..mAy?but juz one clarification.its not abt the stupid medal.i disappointed myself.


everyone have their own goals,dreams.i intend to study mass comm.at least got motivation to do betta for gp considering its already so much sdl.set my own goals.but i guess,when u suddenly fall,its hurts so much that despite numerous consolations frm others or remarks to others on how u feel,no one will understand.


nostalgic mode.anyway.i'm crazy over my tao ze's cd these days.Tension as well.ha.wad perfect timing.when the prelims are like yet to finish and the A's yet to start.again the manifestation of my franticness.argh.shall go sleep.