/ 9:02:00 PM

its a sunday.another cycle of wkdays beginning tml.hopefully wont be juz mundane days in school.went bishan to study today.reunited wif my previous hometown.haha.met up wif dor n mel.jiu wei le~saw my old hse balcony frm far.miss that place.ate hokkien mee at kim san leng.somehow felt like eating it.miss bishan's delicacies.

mel was telling me abt her prom dress.and i was telling her much i really dun feel like gg.more like of an obligation.come to think of it,besides the reason that so much money has to be spent juz for one nite,another reason why i do not wan to go to prom has got to do wif my self confidence.i'm not a very confident person.in myself,in my results,in my aspirations etc.low self esteem i guess.afraid to try new things bcos i'm afraid of this and tt.think too much into it.worry too much abt it when most of the worries are redundant.eventually i make myself rather restrained and rigid.gotta work on that i guess.

was watching soccer juz now.happened to watch cos my dad was watching.real madrid agst thailand.realised real madrid got some shuai players other than becjham.and beckham's hair is not nice.haha.real madrid scored their 2nd goal by luck.made me think how luck is sometimes a really crucial aspect in sports.at ps on friday,in mJ,they were playing iron ladies2 vcd,where the iron ladies team lost their match bcos one of their players touched the net at tt crucial match point moment.wad a familiar scene.so the opposing team won bcos of such a mistake the iron ladies made.winning bcos of the mistakes the opposing team made,that's qt sad case.losing bcos u're out of luck even though u have the skill,tt's worst i guess.

sch tml again.maybe taking SAT in oct.timed prac tml.argh~geo presentation tml.argh~talking abt mib.she 'shoot' us last thu.arse.teachers are juz darn freaking biased.its not bcos i'm jealous of their oh so perfect results.but can u teachers just display some fairness and sense?think abt how others feel.this aint a suicidal blog.but a blog for me to type my own thoughts.i dunno if any teacher may be reading this.tt'll be an interesting thought.