/ 7:09:00 PM

its a friday again.time really flies.living in a world where time travel so fast.makes it difficult for u to actually appreciate what u actually have or done.bcos we're too busy rushing for time to accomplish tasks at hand.mechanical i would say.

didnt get on a gd start this morning.got hx's sms abt the Horizon write up.mentioning that the guys wrote merely everything abt themselves.maybe they tot guys write guys stuff while gers will write their own stuff.i dunno.but wad juz made me stop and think,was that,all our effort was futile.perspiration and hard work equates to success.that's PURE RUBBISH.what did we get?insignificance.obscureness.the point is not tt we dont get to c ourselves in wateva freaking school magazine,but it's juz tt,we're not appreciated.freaking late nights as late as 945,only to wake up super lethargic the next day.discrimination from teachers.and what we get?nothing.just nothing.just pure emptiness.lady luck was juz not on our side.now i noe how losers feel.it's not tt we're desperate or arrogant that we are good or wad,but just tt,the effort was in vain.dun tell me to put it behind me.it did happen a long time ago.but all these,are just embedded sour memories.i noe there's nothing i can do abt this.but what can fill this prolonged emptiness inside me?

sad matters aside.its national day celebrations today.wore a red shirt to school.special tks to jieying for lending me her baleno shirt.was rather weird to c so many ppl on the street wearing a red top.and i tot it would haf been a 'solo performance'.lolx.nd cele was the usual.songs and songs and dances.btu somehow,today's one was on an enthu mode.ppl were cheering and screaming.it was as if there was a concert gg on.looks like the enthu side of aj has revealed itself again.the most funny moment was tt darryl from 36 went up to the stage and acted as if he was the star.haha.damn funny.ppl were forming human trains and revolved ard the performers.extras.haha

went ps's pizza hut to haf lunch.supposed claz outing when 5 of them mysteriously disappeared.tried the cheese pizza.not bad.bcos of some mix up in the orders we earned ourselves an extra cheese pizza.haha.consdiering that each person paid abt 8bucks.not bad.

caught How To Deal.not bad.more of a love story.afraid to fall in love bcos of the fear for getting hurt and the lack of committment.its a sweet show.

i'm back to this sian mode again.anyway.constant reminder of the coming prelims.freakish.realised eye bags getting blacker.ha.so much for sleeping before 11.how ironic.empty empty empty.few factors.a few.