/ 11:51:00 PM

the good thing abt today is that tml's public holiday.which means tt i can sleep late n wake up late.

school.it was ok as usual.felt kinda weird.had frends asking me abt my bites.tks all.i'm alive.haha.maybe a walking bees nest.lolx.but its still freaking itchy.was suppose to do pe today.lkw said sportsppl who had no match on the day of morning pe was supposed to do some light pe but not join their clz for games in fear of gettin injured.one question,den wat if we get injured when we do the supposedly light pe?won't tt be back to square one?i tot we were suppose to be off frm pe to use the time to catch up with our work?why the sudden change?maybe to train up our fittness..but wats the pt when there is a risk of getting injured and gettin all sweaty for a mere 15min pe when u could haf juz stayed clean n do homework in peace?no negative externalities.wonder what lkw is thinking.he's so contradictory.

training.our first q-final match this fri is against hc.coach keeps saying hc is good.natually,psychologically tt will scare us.but we haf to win.if we win all 3 schs n emerge as the overall grp winner,the chance of getting into the finals is much much higher!omG.it'll be a dream come true!we haf to pull together,bring up the morale n confidence and show them who's the man!~sadly the trg today didnt reali clear my doubts abt winning.reali lack the spirit.its quite sad to see tt.the fact tt u try so hard,but den u juz cant get it.the fact tt u try so hard but u still lsoe pts.not as if i wanted to,not as if i didnt hold on tight to the opportunity.but it juz happens.it really has been a long long time since i reached my peak.i'm quite worried.didnt play well these few trg sessions.compared to last time,i'm sliding.i'm guessing it maybe bcos i'm giving myself too much stress,rushing myself too much,hopin to prove i'm actuali worth more than juz a blocker and much more.its reali sickening.try to do wateva i can now.juz feel so pek chek.wif the peer pressure and everything to prove urself,think realli stressing myself too much till i cant perform.argh!~i didnt want tt to happen!~hai.i dunno wat to say liao la.lost for words.brain thinking too much.too much to cover.too much to think on how to impv.if only i was tt hardowrkin in my studies.the irony.

long john silvers.ate tt for dinner wif jing n hx.ate sundae pie as well.pig out alert!tt happens esp when i'm not in a gd mood.talked for quite long.sometimes i'll choose to bottle up my feelings cos i dun wish to get too emotional when i tell ppl abt it.i'd rather keep to myself n onli tok abt it when i'm ready to.blogging does help at times la.cant stand d.dunno y.somehow or rather,frendship wif d is gg off the tracks as well.feeling it.think its bcos of what happened btw the 3 tt i feel so weird nowadays.

my 2 og mates who ran for council didnt get in.feel quite sad for them.they have the potential man.n i dun c wats the link when ultimately it's the teachers who decide on the actual result n not the voting and when not all managed to access the voting site cos ivle screwed up.o.O.the irony.aint democratic.feel tt is unfair to them n rather one sided.but hey,its my point of view.

vesak day tml.shall wake up late,call canadian pizza for luch den do work...leaving sch at 12 for match at ccab against hc which is at 130pm..supporters are warmly welcomed wif open arms..lolx..