/ 8:03:00 PM

dun think i was in the right state of mind in the previous entry.mind was too pre-occupied wif the fact tt i'm in the monitoring programme.

i dunno whether to see it as an advantage or a disadvantage when i'm in tt monitoring programme.it was based on the promo results which was many months ago.made me think;are results really tt impt are is the impvment more beneficial?it seems as though we didnt put in any effort or wad that we're labelled urgent or maybe psychologiclaly unstable tt we haf to be in this monitoring programme.

the counselling session was today.yes counselling.bcos i'm in the monitoring programme.sounds like i;m insane or wad.bah.the teacher was nice la.but somehow,i juz feel tt its rather one sided.cos everything is juz based on results.havent they heard of late bloomers or ppl who excelled in the final examinations.he mentioned abt the slow progress we made.wad the.at least there's progress k.why is he complaning abt it.we're not stagnant.its progress not deprogress or wad.we persisted when we could haf juz let go.talk abt being tactful.teachers these days.bah.i dunno.got gd got bad la this monitoring programme.the fact tt i'm in almost all types of peer tutorin grps wif the extra work n this monitoring programme n not-so-nice labels,it can be demoralising.its inevitable.no matter how much u tell urself u did try or tt such grps can help u or wad,u'll still find it rather demoralising.its really unavoidable.sometimes we can choose to not think it tt way.i did try to be optimistic abt it.but den u'll still think about it.damn.nid to do other stuff to reali take such thigns off my mind man.nid to produce endorphins!~

went to visit chua today wif a couple vball ppl.still limping.seeing him walk ard the house seems bone crunching.haha.he should be in back sch sooner or later.onli has his dog Ginger to accompany him and the tv set.quite sad case.but one gd thing,he was drinking milk.haha.

finished my gp second draft frm yest's timed practice.yawn.gg to do hard times later.feel like there's a lot of work to clear.friday last match of the prelim rounds b4 moving on to the quarter finals.reali hoep we get a gd grping which can secure us a plce in the semis in order to move on to the finals man.its has really been a long time since aj vball gers entered the finals.