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nationals begin AFTER the june holidays.wad is this.how to study for common tests?how to concentrate fully?have to engage in a balancing act again until the end of july?is it possible?or is it doomed to fail in both aspects?mum told me to think over,wantin me to quit n go full force into studies.saying a levels more impt.but giving up a dream that has nv come true juz for studies,makes life rather meaningless.it wont be easy the road down.it wont be.

eveything has to come together,always,we haf to prioritise.why?seems endless.ogl vs vball was the past now is vball vs studies.damnit.was in vball since pri sch.quitted it in p5 due to my lousy results.is history gg to repeat itself?i hope not.frm pri sch up till now,almost 8 yrs.the dream of getting into the finals or even winning the championship seems so elusive.i mean,its a dream.we cant juz gif up like that juz bcos of studies.but den,studies are oso impt.argH.priorities again.its my last yr in aj.it may be the last time i'll eva touch a vball.i said tt back in sec sch as well.but in the end,still ended up appealing into aj thru vball.why?bcos of the unmemorable last final match against ngee ann.pathetic.made me wanna cont playing.well i'm glad i made tt decision.made great friends and a czt which can be nice at times.reali appreciate them.damnit,juz hate to prioritise n balance.

life is juz like a box of chocolates.