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demoralised.had pep talk wif my pd tutor today.supposed to check my gp files den it ended up in a pep talk.i'm one of the students under her watch.labelled academically weak.no its not bcos of my cca.vball doesnt reali take up much of my time.mainly its bcos of the lack of interest.esp in lit.econ n gp-i feel tt i haf the ability but not yet able to flaunt it.somehow or wateva,i jzu cant seem to do well.so its a matter of skill.when i mentioned i had no interest in lit,she went 'oh dear'.i noe i noe..no interest but yet its one of my A lvl sub.dangerous.haf to do well.or no university.but now no interest.low grades dun contribute much to my already depleting morale.its rated negative.irrelevance to qn in essays.incoherence.lousy grades.cant say i didnt try.maybe not hard enuf.urgh.so sick of trying w/o pducing results.wish can juz let go.quit sch.slack full time.but in such a society,impossible.its so hard to survive out here.constant worry of results.constant fear of not being able to complete hw or presentations.wat is this.sch is suppose to be memorable rite.maybe w/o taking acadmic into consideratn,sch rocks.

trg was ok yesterday.can be betta.having a friendly next wk.guess with who?AJ pe dept.cant wait to spike pighead lim's head.hahah..mayb tt would bring dwn the swelling of his bloaty head.

hw.hw.and more hw.pile pile pile.more SDLs to complete.self improvement.jia you.dun gif up girl.you can go it.

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