/ 10:20:00 PM

yEst training...my first ball sucked completely..chua was pissed loh..can c cos he anyhow serve.scolded us wad y we( i think he's more of referring to me) so lan san like sian sian dun wan jie 1st ball.is not tt i very lan san but is juz tt i haf a fear for 1st ball.for the past 3 yrs i had a libero.now dun haf.bu xi guan.no confidence in 1st ball oso.it affects my performance loh.smetimes when i jie fei is damn demoralising.can cry loh when i think of it.is like i try but not hard enuf.the ball still flies.freakingly sad lei.den yest chua like so pissed i could haf like cried lor but i too stnrg n thick skin to cry infrnt of everybody.ctrl la.not 1st time liao.i very slow i dun dare to jie it.wat to do.no matter wat i still haf to change for the sake fo nxt yr for the sake of aJ for the sake of my team mates.jiA you!